Dear Sir / Madam,
I feel my intense pains!
People with such medical problems ( chemically induced toxicity) suffer
from all kind of environmental stimulas , that healthy person can not
even imagine of any thing even remotely comparable / reflecting such
The Pain (sensory and emotional experience ) is so unpleasant , that
IT HURTS JUST TO BE!
IT HURTS JUST TO LIVE!
THE LIGHT HURTS, THE SOUND HURTS, THE VOICE HURTS, THINKING PROCESS /
ATTEMPT TO THINK HURTS, ALL OTHER FUNCTIONS HURT etc.
ALL ENVIRONMENTAL STIMULAS ( non detectable stimulus) DO INFLICT SEVERE
PAIN / HURT / INFLICT PAINS BEYOND RANGE IMAGINARY FOR HEALTHY PERSON !
THIS IS LIKE DYING ALL OVER AGAIN ON CONTINUOUS BASES. THIS IS LIKE BEING
DISMEMBERED / TAKEN A PART VERY SLOWLY!
It is a feeling similar to such experiences as stubbing a toe, burning a
finger, putting iodine on a cut, bumping the funny bone and / or exploding
each organ separately or all together at once , it is like being deprived of
air, it is like being subjected to immense pressures etc.. etc., etc.
The pains are so overwhelming and BEYOND DEFINITION that they significantly
interfere with my life and general functioning, they significantly modulate
in intensity / unpleasantness that I FEEL LIKE dying and giving up and
that my body is being subdued by shut down processes.
That is why and when I start to stop to feel any thing for a moment.
That is when and why I start to part with my own body.
That is when life starts to abandon my suffering / exhausted by pains and
I am going trough mental and physical torment / suffer, but for some
reasons I continue to live .
I am not certain about tomorrow nor even a moment ahead of me, but MY
DESTINY CONTINUES TO KEEP ME AROUND.
I manage to continue to struggle.
I try to not think about dying.
Once that psychos takes me over, then it will be over......:)
Only hope for resolution / for improvement/ or for stability with out
further deterioration can safe me.
Even severely compromised / impaired person can continue to live if he /she
has moral support and strength to learn how to live with impairments /
degree of suffer.
With time I may become accustom to pain to such a degree, that I may become
able to tolerate it.
I TRY TO remind to my self, that I am for a purpose on this Earth .
I am part of some body's life. I am part of Society!
I think about it.
I.W. use to say " I will be lucky and die because living like this is no
life." - well, that is why so many I.W. take their lives!.
THIS IS WRONG!!!!!!!!! THAT IS HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW BUT MY THINKING
THOSE I.W. WHO THINK ABOUT DYING ARE PLAYING ALONG WSiB's/ WCB's lines,
instead of resisting the terror and fighting to eliminate the evil -WSiB/
WCB from society!
Injured Workers, stay alive and fighting!
Apotex's/ WSiB's victim